Riajha

In the last 4 years there has been alot of changes.
Emotions re-arranged.
Looking back to these entries I'm not going to delete them, just build from them.
Welcome wanderer from the internet, is intrigue enough to bleed?

I really don't update this one... lol

Lots of random things, not very much written. I think I might revive an old story of mine, I'll be sure to post it when I get the chance.

Once I get my modeling pictures back, I'll put them up. Dunno if they'll be good enough for stock, but you're all more then welcome to use them.
Why do I feel like I just addressed an empty room?

They're for Night Shadow Productions and RavenWood Photography, Gothic and Alternative work. Hehe, makes me all happy and giddy.

Anyways, must be off.

Ciao
-Riajha

I have been neglecting this journal, though I don't think anyone knows about it.
I want to do an interesting style with my hair, though I am going to need to get about 150$ to do it. It involves my hair being permently straightened.

Sooo... yeah... getting over my previous depression somewhat. Just avoiding the situation.

You ever feel like falling back to the safe option isn't the right choice?

Ciao
-Riajha

She isn't worth my tears, my time, my worries. She used me, and now I've learned to be stronger. I can see through her well placed mask, and I hope to grow from this experiance.

And now I see her using others, and it doesn't surprise me in the slightest. It must stroke her ego to see the effect she has made on me.

I can't have you're child, so I'm tossed aside, so much for undying love huh?

Anyways, enough ranting.

I hope to be posting some more stuff soon, writing mood has hit but I have no source of computer aside from the random spurts in between.

My friend Mandy died on Friday. Saturday is her funeral... I dunno if I am going. Too many this last year. Far too many.

Rest In Peace.

Chris, Nick, Uncle Marshall, Auntie Miriam, Julie, Mandy... it doesn't fucking end.

Ciao
-Riajha

Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without
Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow
Oh, but God I want to let it go

Come to bed, don't make me sleep alone
Couldn't hide the emptiness you let it show
Never wanted it to be so cold
Just didn't drink enough to say you love me

I can't hold on to me
Wonder what's wrong with me

Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without
Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow

Don't want to let it lay me down this time
Drown my will to fly
Here in the darkness I know myself
Can't break free until I let it go
Let me go

Darling, I forgive you after all
Anything is better than to be alone
And in the end I guess I had to fall
Always find my place amoung the ashes

I can't hold on to me
Wonder what's wrong with me

Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without
Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow
Oh, but God I want to let it go...
-Lithium by Evanescence

Stuck in my head, shows how I'm feeling.
I am waiting for my Mate to show up, missing her.

I did some finances today, Goddess its annoying. The lack of money is a depressing thing. I may have to put off my tongue piercing, which is ok because its not the biggest of my worries. The biggest of my worries is that I need to get lotsa money by the 20th. I could borrow money, but thats a last resort. I hate borrowing money.

The Open Door came out today, I am GOING to get that CD. But, its gonna have to wait. Who cares, I have the lyrics for the first 6 songs memorized.

I have the urge to write something.

Ciao
-Riajha