When my focus fails and my emotions ail I find parts break down around me. I lose track of the pieces and retreat. My feelings pull in "reality" what depression shoves down on me and I am left hopless all around. I can't differentiate up from down. this hollow ache stonely grounds
I push myself into the earth hoping my pressure will adjust the dirt and I can rest in void of sound.
give me a moment to halt the bound
I know there is another way of dealing with this stay. Its by overwhelming impending that the strength to vacate acutely relates. In basic defense emotions are the first neglect
unnerving is the concept.
I'm not sure when my next chance in will reveal its eternal internal struggle as left and right though opposite both equally impeccably reason on a molecular level. To override collide skin and steel align and yield wrapped terribly tumbling exposed horrors imposed-- the most unsettling feeling of all is understanding danger too far.